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discedo2012-03-10 07:38 pm
gochuugoku) wrote in discedo2012-03-10 07:38 pm
audio/action Sad China is Sad
[There's sounds of China playing his bamboo flute. No specific song, just a couple of notes. However, some of the notes begin to fail. There's a tremble in them until they come out as nothing more than a raspy sound. Unseen by others, China takes his flute away from his lips.]
I never got to tell her what I wanted I say.
[If anyone wants to run into him, he's sitting on a tree branch within Discedo's Horizon Park.]
I never got to tell her what I wanted I say.
[If anyone wants to run into him, he's sitting on a tree branch within Discedo's Horizon Park.]
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If you don't remember what happened... [Was it really fair to keep blaming him? Even if he was responsible for those actions, could this really be the same person? And this place did such strange things...]
I-it was 1967 for you when I first arrived but you kept changing times...
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Please go on.
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[It had been tempting, somewhat, to leave things as they had stood at the time, the clear-cut lines, the obvious hostility,
her seat on the UN]But um...I mean, with the way time seems to work here...[Action]
But what else happened besides time changes?
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But what about other things that I do not remember? Did anything else happen before I returned home? Anything else I did to upset Japan or the family?
[Come on, sis. Don't lie to him when he's looking at you with that face.]
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Why is that?
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[But of course that's not true. There were still moments when she caught a glimpse of Japan out of the corner of her eye and gives a reflexive shudder, when a stray thought leaves her wanting to hide under her blankets and never come out again, harking back to a world where she doesn't teeter in uncertainty, when she could be outdoors all the time without worrying about her complexion or her GDP or what would happen if those few countries that still semi-acknowledged her withdrew their regard.
In comparison with that, what could China ever do to her here that was so horrible? And that he didn't even remember that that.]
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Because! [He realizes too late that he used too much force in his tone there, so he tones it down to a growling voice.]
Because someone outside our family had to tell me that Japan is upset over exactly that: me not remembering, as though it never happened and only remembering the good things. That's why he didn't like that my first memory of this place was of Stocking.
I should have heard it from my family first and not anyone else! Keeping things from me here is not going to make things go away, it's only going to come back and get worse! [His voice is rising again.] Isn't that what you and the others should have learned all these hundreds of years?! That running away from your problems is not going to help you?!
[He's breathing hard by the end of it.]
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This is what you're worried about? The things that were happening here to you last time? I couldn't say anything before when you were from the past, because what if it changed things, but why did I bother being careful? You leave, you come back, it doesn't make a difference at all! You forget what happened before, and oh, suddenly the slate is wiped clean, just as you say.
So how are we supposed to deal with that? It's not like it actually matters when things happen here! And everyone seems like they just want to forget about what might be going on at home when we're not there, like the first thing on everyone's mind whether they're coming and going is this place!
[Slightly softer, but angrier, more vehement] And coming to me, asking everyone but the person the matter actually concerns about why he's angry with you? How is that not running away from your problems?
[Turning away, bracing herself to jump down] You have no right to tell me what I should or should not have learned over these years.
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I don't know what happened. I returned home, then I completely forgot about Fortuna and all that had transpired. When I returned, I still remembered nothing until weeks later. Many people tell who have also gone home and come back tell me that they too forgot while they were home, but they remembered upon returning to Fortuna. That's why they also tell me that my case is strange. Either people remember or they don't. They are shaded either in "black or white" as Yuuko put it, not "grey" like me.
In one of my memories that I recall from here, I also thought that what happened here didn't matter if we were just going to forgot once we returned home, but Marco managed to convince me that it still does matter. If things did not matter here, than that would mean his relationship with Kiku didn't matter [Yes, he knows about this.], which would also mean my relationship with Stocking didn't matter. I... loved her, so it does matter, at least to me.
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My point is, I am trying, Taiwan. I know thanks to the memory visions that I am not--how do they say?--"off the hook" either. Why do you think I am trying to make amends for the things I've done? I'm aware that I'll probably never do enough to make up for what I did, but I can at least try.
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...It was wrong of me to take it all out on you. Please forgive me. [He's looking down now and his eyes seemed slightly glassy.]
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I didn't...really mean to yell like that... [She says it haltingly, anger and sadness and embarrassment all wound up together in a tangle] I didn't mean... [what I said] So you have to forgive me too.
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[He embraces her.]
You know, Marco also told me that we should take advantage of the perks here while it lasts. See, here we can be the human part of our selves instead of the Nation. Of course, we shouldn't completely neglect our responsibilities as Nations, but we are more free here. No politicians breathing down our necks and no governments to tell us who we can and can't like.
I don't have to be defensive against my own family here.
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