B-because... [she takes a deep breath] What's the use of dragging out old wounds? If you've forgotten then it's like it never happened, isn't it?

[But of course that's not true. There were still moments when she caught a glimpse of Japan out of the corner of her eye and gives a reflexive shudder, when a stray thought leaves her wanting to hide under her blankets and never come out again, harking back to a world where she doesn't teeter in uncertainty, when she could be outdoors all the time without worrying about her complexion or her GDP or what would happen if those few countries that still semi-acknowledged her withdrew their regard.

In comparison with that, what could China ever do to her here that was so horrible? And that he didn't even remember that that.]